easier said than done.
(Source: staypozitive)
No matter how many times I say ‘I hate you’, I could never really mean it. I could never hate you because you gave me so much happiness. You made me smile, laugh, and feel things I’ve never felt before. Yeah, it was a shame that it had to end but I cherish those memories we had. I hope you’re doing good with whoever you’re with. I will always have feelings for you, even if its a tiny little crush, its still there. I really want you to be happy, even if its not with me…
not again..
right when i started to trust you again, right when i started to let you back in my life and thought to give you a second chance, you go and break my trust and do what you’ve always done. BREAK my heart. i dont even know what to do now. you’re so important to me and someone i care for a lot, but now, i dont even know how to deal with you. you’ve hurt me ONE too many times.
disappointment…
disappointment. that seems to be the only thing that i amount to. when will i be able to to BE someone in your eyes. when will i be good enough to meet your expectations. i’m tired of trying to be somebody I don’t wanna be, just to please others, just to please YOU. but will I ever be able to make you happy? will i ever be somebody who makes you proud? i really hope so. the day you tell me you’re proud of me might actually be one of the happiest days of my life. until that day, i guess i’ll continue on trying to make you proud, only this time….i’m doing it MY way.
